::not so random thoughts:::
experience,mistakes,memories-the bad and the good ones,the happy thoughts,the real nightmares,the laughter laughed and tears shed,the hope and dreams-a person is a mixture of all of these.
the perpetual smile of a friend,the ever present laughter of a neighbour,the serious facade of a stranger, the gentleness of a mother.
the world are made of of great actors, for every person we come across, beneath the sleek and smooth exterior, lies a thousand and one stories.the childhood and the past,dreams and the present life.secrets that will never be told.fears and hopes.-the whole history.
so why is it still such a surprise when we suddenly begin to have doubts about the person we thought we know?and why is it soo soo disturbing?
heck, we don't even know ourselves do we?
we are molded by our past and present-and the way we perceive them.
whether or not we acknowledge it,our thoughts, decisions, beliefs and the grounds we stand on stem from the past and our experience more than anything.
and just as we thought the grounds we choose to stand on are stable enough,the experiences we've gone through left a mark deep enough, and the beliefs we hold are strong enough, our actions and deeds still manage to surprise ourselves and this will be the moment where we doubt our capabilities to tread the right path and not slip and chooses to do something that would taint us permanently.
for every mistake made, there's a lesson learnt.
but what if the mistake made is the kind of mistake that would leave us in endless regret?the undo-able, un-correctable, un-repairable,irreversible kind of mistake?the kind of mistake that has no lessons to teach us.just stories and experience that we can pass on to other people.-lesson for other people,from the mistake that we had done.
life's too short to make all the mistakes in the world.this is the kind of mistake that one should avoid making.
but sometimes we just....slip.
then again,most of the time, a split second realisation that we are doing the wrong thing always cross our mind, even at the last minute. and it is really up to us whether we want to take heed of the realisation or just go ahead and lose our foothold completely.
and hey, really, if you lose your foothold, you have no one else to blame but yourself.
