suGar and sPices.wiTh a dash of PePperMinT.

::musings::

we've led different lives.taken different path.and are occupied by loads of (more pressing) things.

so is it selfish of me to feel taken for granted that i'm not among the first people who receive how r yous/hellos/news from you anymore?and that for the past few months, i almost always have to initiate whatever conversations that has been btwn us.

its not like we do not talk at all.its not like you dont tell me things at all.and it's not like i dont understand that you are occupied with loads of things and that you couldnt posibbly tell everyone  the same news at the same time so you just have to tell certain ppl and hope that the news will travel.

i understand because i does this myself,and had unwittingly hurt some ppl along the way.so yeah,i completely understand.

so is it selfish of me to still feel taken for granted?

*this is just a musing and is largely contributed due to pms and hormonal imbalance.so yeah, this entry shud be ignored*

::of pengacau ketenteraman orang ramai::

ok. what is it with most guys and whistles and seriously plebeian remarks????!

i mean, whistling and calling out names to people??? saying things like adik, larilah cepat sikit to any girls they see jogging????and when ppl ignore them-which is what we are supposed to do anyway, they'll start saying things like...'alaa...sombongnye; or 'ko ingat ko cun sangat ke??'

wtf????

what is wrong with these people???

first of all,that is just so not the way to get someone's attention.okay?!

secondly. adik???? you good for nothing chickencraps!!i look older than you!!!!you guys are just a bunch of schoolkids with nothing better to do than lepak-ing at the beach and terrorizing ppl there.just go home and do your homeworks for heaven's sake.or help your mommy with the household chores or whatever.

just dont waste your bloody time kacau-ing other ppl.

third, when you see a girl  or anyone for that matter,jogging on the beach, she, or he, DO NOT WANT TO BE DISTURBED.we are jogging for goodness sake!!and who the hell likes being disturbed when jogging?????and the point of jogging at the beach and NOT on the treadmill is so that we can enjoy the scenery and the sound of the waves and obviously not of the sight of you dissapointingly uncivilised,in-serious-need-of-manner-lessons-teenagers (ok as if i'm not a teenager,but you get what i mean.)and most importantly NOT the sound of your ugly remarks and the loud and definitely unattractive laughters.

ok.i know la that these ppl dont mean any harm,that they were doing it just for the sake of doing it and....ya-da,ya-da,ya-da (fill the blanks with wtv excuses you can think of).and that everywhere i go pun i will still encounter this kind of ppl-whether its k.l ke, s.alam ke or even in terengganu, which btw, is where i am now.and that all i should do is ignore them. and that, ala..this thing is not a big deal, biasa je...everyone had,has and will encounter this type of ppl.

i know.okay.

but just think about it for a second.since when has this thing,this lepak-ing, whistling and shouting plebeian remarks to passer-bys become tolerable??as far as i'm concern, it has only become too common that ppl just get used to them,and not make a big deal out of it anymore.it has NEVER become tolerable.and besides, (this is to those ppl) who says, 'ala..tak pe, biase je bende ni...dah biase dah....biarkan..'::when you are saying that, do you realise that you are also saying that it is okay to let this..shall i say, 'budaya' go on and on and on?what.so now, we are letting this thing be assimilated into our everyday lives.nanti bile dah biase sangat, semua orangpun rase macam bende ni dah tak de ape-ape or not rude anymore.and akibatnye, makin ramai lah yang akan berbuat demikian.

imagine our little brothers or sons growing up to be one of those lepak-ing boys.god forbid.

the point is,ok, this thing has been going on since forever, but to those people out there who actually does this.come on la...don't you have anything better to do? do you seriously get some sort of a thrill from kacau-ing ppl like that?lemme suggest something: try approaching in a more polite way and make friends.that should be a lot more fun.not to mention,rewarding too.

and if you say, "alaa...ramai lagilah yang buat macam tu...", use your god-given akal to determine what is good and not good to do-lah you schmuck.~

quoting ika: i only whistle to animals you IDIOTS!!!

ini tidak, dari budak 6 tahun sampai lah ke mak cik-mak cik kamu nak kacau.bongok.

-end of blog-

::you wouldn't like me::

a song by Tegan and Sara which i like for thousands of reasons.

and... it kinda suits my mood right now.

You wouldn't like me

There's a war inside of me
Do I cause new heartbreak to write a new broken song
Do I push it down or let it run me right into the ground
I, I feel like I wouldn't like me if I met me
Well I can't stop talking for fear of listening to unwelcome sound
and you haven't called me in weeks and honestly it's bringing me down
Oh I feel like I wouldn't like me if I met me
I feel like you wouldn't like me if you met me
And don't you worry there's still time
Don’t you worry there’s still time
There’s nothing to live for when I'm sleeping alone
and I wash the windows outside in hopes that the glare will bring you around
I, I feel like I wouldn't like me if I met me
I, I feel like you wouldn't like me if you met me
So you don’t you worry there’s still time
Don’t you worry there’s still time (x3)
sunshine is days away I won't be saved I know all the words
I can't say that I'll love you forever
Sunshine is days away I won't be saved I know all the words
I won't say that I'll love you forever

::superficial.us::

we might seem close, with all those comfortableness-so-happy-together craps on display.

Truth is, we get on each other's nerve and THAT is evident in everything we say and do.

We would do the sweetest things while saying things that hurts the other person. We would help each other out when we'd rather not. We would say the most assuring things when our actions shows otherwise.

The ironic part is that the relationship still works.and by god,we get along well-minus the occasional hurtful remarks that we usually pretended  not to take to heart,that is.

but still, all is well.

kinda makes one wonders and marvel at the complexities of relationships huh?

superficial us.and obviously, there's little if not none at all, love lost here.

the part that scares me the most?

this. works with me just fine.